So to my shock I am on CD26. How did that happen? It really seems like I just finished AF. I had some slight spotting today so I figured maybe I had O'd. Well I guess not. How on earth does 26 days pass that quickly?
I was going to start charting in September in hopes that I will be able to TTC again in January, so I guess this is my last cycle without all the questions, measurements and second guessing of eveything.
Monday, August 25, 2008
Visits from friends are great...
Well M came to visit this week. She got here Saturday evening and will leave tomorrow morning. I am so glad she came and I had a great time.
I met M a few years ago off a donor website. She was always very supportive and active until about 6 months ago when that site started to become over run with trolls. She broke off and formed her own board which I then joined and helped her develop and run. She has been a great friend online and we decided to meet. I must say I was a little nervous joining the online world with the real one, but I decided to go for it.
M has been great and the twins LOVE her. She is so good with them which breaks my heart because she has struggled for years to have one of her own without success to this point. We went to the Science Center, walked in the Gardens and then went out for dinner on Sunday. Today we hung around the house, mostly because it was raining. We did go to Walmart where I talked her into buying a GPS :) and then Kohl's where I got some great deals on some kids clothes. We ended the evening with dinner out again. The past few days have been a lot of fun and I will be sad to see her go. She lives about 6 hours from here so it will be awhile before we meet again. Next time, hopefully I will be able to visit her.
Here is K, S and M during our Walk.
I met M a few years ago off a donor website. She was always very supportive and active until about 6 months ago when that site started to become over run with trolls. She broke off and formed her own board which I then joined and helped her develop and run. She has been a great friend online and we decided to meet. I must say I was a little nervous joining the online world with the real one, but I decided to go for it.
M has been great and the twins LOVE her. She is so good with them which breaks my heart because she has struggled for years to have one of her own without success to this point. We went to the Science Center, walked in the Gardens and then went out for dinner on Sunday. Today we hung around the house, mostly because it was raining. We did go to Walmart where I talked her into buying a GPS :) and then Kohl's where I got some great deals on some kids clothes. We ended the evening with dinner out again. The past few days have been a lot of fun and I will be sad to see her go. She lives about 6 hours from here so it will be awhile before we meet again. Next time, hopefully I will be able to visit her.
Here is K, S and M during our Walk.
Now it's just time for J and her brood to come visit....which I am promised will be next year :)
Saturday, August 23, 2008
So tired this morning
This morning I woke up more tired then when I went to bed. It's one of those mornings UGH. I spent it half asleep on the floor while the twins played. I don't know if it's the MS or just life. Both my arms ache like crazy - my shots have been in my arms the last 2 days and I have had a slight headache. Days like this really make being a SMBC a challenge.
It doesn't help matters that my house is a mess and M will be here this afternoon. I will take a short nap and then clean like a crazy woman this afternoon.
It doesn't help matters that my house is a mess and M will be here this afternoon. I will take a short nap and then clean like a crazy woman this afternoon.
Friday, August 22, 2008
Weight Loss Sucks
Last May I made the decision to lose weight. I was/am very overweight. Last year I was able to lose 90lbs!! I still had at least another 90lbs to go this year but after my diagnosis of MS I lost all desire to lose weight and sunk into a depression. I actually gained about 20lbs back and horrible as that was. Since April I have tried probably 50 times to restart my diet without success. I do okay for a few weeks but it seems like my body is fighting me this time. Last year I would lose 2-3lbs per week. This year I can be good with my eating and exercise and then weigh in only to find that I weigh the same or even slightly higher. It doesn't make any sense and it is extremely discouraging. Add to that my sucky month and I will just say that I have been doing a lot of emotional eating lately.
The biggest reason this sucks is I want to be a certain weight before I start TTC again in January. At this rate, I will never make it :(
The biggest reason this sucks is I want to be a certain weight before I start TTC again in January. At this rate, I will never make it :(
This month has FU@KING sucked!
August has been a month from HELL. Probably had a lot to do with why I haven't posted in so long, however the blogging may have helped with the stress!
This month we had a ton of play dates scheduled. Then the kids have gymnastics. We got the membership to the YMCA so we are trying to go swimming once a week. Then I belong to a local walking club and we walk 2 miles 3 days a week. Then I am the moderator to 2 local mommy groups (single mommies and mommies with depression). I also moderate 2 online forums. And just because I didn't think I was busy enough I am now the President, Web Site Designer and Treasurer to my local Mommies of Multiples (MOM) group. And did I mention I also work :P
Hopefully some of these things will calm down soon. This month MOM had their consignment sale which took a lot of my time and me and the Vice President are also working very hard to get advertising up around the community so maybe once those 2 projects are done my life will calm down a bit. Oh and just one comment and I will move on....some women are just catty bitches.
Last weekend I had my Grandparents stay with us. They live in Florida and we see them about once a year. Then this weekend an Internet friend will come and visit! This will be the first face to face we have had. I am very excited about this. :)
This month we had a ton of play dates scheduled. Then the kids have gymnastics. We got the membership to the YMCA so we are trying to go swimming once a week. Then I belong to a local walking club and we walk 2 miles 3 days a week. Then I am the moderator to 2 local mommy groups (single mommies and mommies with depression). I also moderate 2 online forums. And just because I didn't think I was busy enough I am now the President, Web Site Designer and Treasurer to my local Mommies of Multiples (MOM) group. And did I mention I also work :P
Hopefully some of these things will calm down soon. This month MOM had their consignment sale which took a lot of my time and me and the Vice President are also working very hard to get advertising up around the community so maybe once those 2 projects are done my life will calm down a bit. Oh and just one comment and I will move on....some women are just catty bitches.
Last weekend I had my Grandparents stay with us. They live in Florida and we see them about once a year. Then this weekend an Internet friend will come and visit! This will be the first face to face we have had. I am very excited about this. :)
My stupidity...
So I created this blog as a anonymous way of posting my feelings and random thoughts. Well I didn't really think that through very well, because of course when I left comments on my friends blog, it lead her straight here - I am such a dumb ass!
Let me say that I REALLY don't have a problem with this, or other friends reading this blog, I guess I just had this attraction to complete anonymity. Ah well. I knew it wouldn't last forever and really any of my friends who are creative with Google would have found me anyway.
J, I welcome you here :) Don't worry about finding this blog. As you can read, there is really nothing all that interesting here any way :)
Let me say that I REALLY don't have a problem with this, or other friends reading this blog, I guess I just had this attraction to complete anonymity. Ah well. I knew it wouldn't last forever and really any of my friends who are creative with Google would have found me anyway.
J, I welcome you here :) Don't worry about finding this blog. As you can read, there is really nothing all that interesting here any way :)
Get use to it....
My lack of posting that is. This is very typical of me. I will start something and think I will post everyday and keep up some great conversations, but then I peter out and go days or weeks without posting. So basically, don't count on this being updated very frequently...although I will try!
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