Both of the twins talk a lot about the future. I have been around kids my entire life and I have never heard children so young constantly plan and speak about what like will be like when they are older. Maybe I have just forgotten, or maybe the twins are more mature in this area.
Today I will share K's plan for the future. I will post S's tomorrow.
K plans on being a nurse or doctor. When she was in the PACU after her surgery a few weeks ago, she said that she would like to help kids, so right now, we are looking at pediatrics. She often asks what she needs to do to become a nurse and how will she get there. I just remind her that she needs to finish 'regular' school first.
She is going to marry a brown haired boy. He is going to take care of her. Together they will live in a pink house that she is going to have built next to my house. It's going to have a trampoline and a pool. There will be four bedrooms. The outside will be pink along with most of the furniture.
Her and her husband are going to have 2 kids. The way K talks these kids will be twins. One will be a boy and one will be a girl. The names change but this week they will be called Matthew and Sara. I will come to the hospital with her and stay with the babies. I will then move into her house and help take care of the boy baby...because she only wants to care for the girl baby. I will then be her nanny when she goes back to work.
She will let her kids watch scary TV shows and stay up late. They don't have to clean up or be quiet at night. They can eat what they want.
The above story has been repeated to me for months now. A few details may change, but the overall story stays the same. I find it very cute that K is already planning her life. I have to smile and wonder just how much of it will come true :o)
Monday, August 23, 2010
Friday, August 20, 2010
Random Stuff
Just a few things going on here...
- Will start with the positive. K has had no pain medicine for a week as of today. This is incredible. I am beyond thrilled that the surgery went well, her recovery was quick, and everything seems to be a complete success. It's so wonderful when everything goes the way it's supposed to.
- For some reason my milk supply has dropped significantly. Different reasons could be the stress of the last few weeks with long days at the hospital (work and with K) and not being able to pump the way I should be. Also M's thrush could have affected it as well. I went and saw my lactation consultant and have started taking some things. Fenugreek (smells like maple syrup and will help in production) Supplements (with garlic and probiotics to help treat any potential thrush in my breasts) and a yummy batch of lactation bars (like granola bars with ingredients known to help production.) It seems to be working as I am pumping more milk. The pills are causing horrible heartburn though and when you are burping up pills that taste like garlic and maple syrup...well, let's just say it's interesting. I need to work on my feelings of guilt though, because I really only pump to donate milk and I am doing all this work to keep up a supply for the family I donate to. Sometimes I just need to take care of us.
- I work this weekend - boo. My mom is here spending the weekend and watching the munchkins. It should go well since I will be spending most of the waking hours at work. I really do appreciate her help like this though since it saves me a ton on babysitting.
- Next week will end on a busy note. Our twin consignment sale is next week and I have a ton of stuff to get rid of. I would love to sell everything because (1) I need the stuff out of my closets. I think I have 5 large containers plus big baby gear items, and (2) I would love to make enough money to pay for M's nine and twelve month portraits.
- And on a bad mommy note...M fell of the chair tonight and hit his head :( He got a big bruised goose egg right away. This is his first major injury and he was pitiful. Makes me feel so horrible to letting it happen. I hope when he wakes up in the morning it doesn't look too bad.
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
Lonely...
The past few days I have felt kind of lost. It actually started when I got one of those stupid chain emails where you fill out answers to silly questions. One of the questions was "Who is your best friend?" and I didn't have an answer. It kind of hit me like a ton of bricks that I don't really have a 'best friend'. I have lots of good friends, but no one friend who I can count on anytime to help me out in a pinch; no one that I can share my deepest secrets with and not worry about being judged; no one who I regularly hang out with and feel connected to.
There is one person who comes close...but she is 1000's of miles away and therefor it isn't really the same.
I don't know why this is the case. I know many people form their life long friendships in high school and I of course moved to a different country after I graduated high school. I went to a technical college so didn't get the dorm life or sorority experience. I am not one to go clubbing or to large social events so I guess my opportunity to meet people is limited.
Maybe this is more important to me since I am a single mom by choice. I have made the decision to parent alone and it's not a decision I regret, however I think it makes me need a close friend all the more. I need another adult that I can share things with and have adult conversation with. Someone who when the kids drive me nuts and I need an escape completely gets it and lets me spew my emotions all over them.
Since having kids I have made more friends because I do put myself out there for the kids. I participate in many groups and attend many play dates. I have relationships with people at work. I have met some really great people but I've never gotten that big connection with anyone. Maybe it's because they are all married; maybe because at this point in life most people have already established their close friendships; maybe it's because I tend to have a hard time trusting people and allowing myself to be vulnerable.
I'm not sure how to fix this, now at 30 years old. Part of me thinks it too late and I need to be grateful for the group of friends I have and not worry about having one or two 'best' friends. But part of me really yearns for that best friend relationship.
There is one person who comes close...but she is 1000's of miles away and therefor it isn't really the same.
I don't know why this is the case. I know many people form their life long friendships in high school and I of course moved to a different country after I graduated high school. I went to a technical college so didn't get the dorm life or sorority experience. I am not one to go clubbing or to large social events so I guess my opportunity to meet people is limited.
Maybe this is more important to me since I am a single mom by choice. I have made the decision to parent alone and it's not a decision I regret, however I think it makes me need a close friend all the more. I need another adult that I can share things with and have adult conversation with. Someone who when the kids drive me nuts and I need an escape completely gets it and lets me spew my emotions all over them.
Since having kids I have made more friends because I do put myself out there for the kids. I participate in many groups and attend many play dates. I have relationships with people at work. I have met some really great people but I've never gotten that big connection with anyone. Maybe it's because they are all married; maybe because at this point in life most people have already established their close friendships; maybe it's because I tend to have a hard time trusting people and allowing myself to be vulnerable.
I'm not sure how to fix this, now at 30 years old. Part of me thinks it too late and I need to be grateful for the group of friends I have and not worry about having one or two 'best' friends. But part of me really yearns for that best friend relationship.
Saturday, August 14, 2010
Success!
I think it's pretty safe to say that the surgery was a success. It has been 42hours since K has had anything for pain. She is walking around and her limp is definitely less noticeable. This is amazing since right up until her surgery she was requiring meds every 4-6 hours; waking during the night in tears; limping pretty badly at times; and pretty miserable at times.
I am beyond relieved to think that in a few days we may be able to put all of this behind us. She says her leg is hurts a little, but only if I ask her. She states that it's not her 'spot' that hurts, but rather the 'hole' where they fixed it. She still gets her band aid changed everyday, but I'm thinking this will stop tomorrow or Monday.
Overall things are great right now with K. I am so happy for her and her relief from misery!
I am beyond relieved to think that in a few days we may be able to put all of this behind us. She says her leg is hurts a little, but only if I ask her. She states that it's not her 'spot' that hurts, but rather the 'hole' where they fixed it. She still gets her band aid changed everyday, but I'm thinking this will stop tomorrow or Monday.
Overall things are great right now with K. I am so happy for her and her relief from misery!
Thursday, August 12, 2010
A Good Day!
K has done great today!
This morning around 2am K woke up crying saying her leg hurt. This was about the time that all the meds she received in the hospital were wearing off, so her pain was very understandable. I gave her meds and we both went back to sleep. I re-medicated her just before I left for work today at 8am.
With her sitter K seemed to have a good day. She was very active and often had to be reminded to slow down and take it easy. She never complained of pain...not one time! She was in a good mood and seemed to be moving well.
When I got home a great friend of mine brought us some dinner and then we ran out to Walmart for some groceries. It wasn't until 8p tonight that K asked for meds again. That's 12 hours in between doses!!! That is great!!! K had been taking meds every 4-6 hours.
I am hoping this means the surgery was a success and that once she heals from the surgery itself, she will be pain free and back to normal!!
This morning around 2am K woke up crying saying her leg hurt. This was about the time that all the meds she received in the hospital were wearing off, so her pain was very understandable. I gave her meds and we both went back to sleep. I re-medicated her just before I left for work today at 8am.
With her sitter K seemed to have a good day. She was very active and often had to be reminded to slow down and take it easy. She never complained of pain...not one time! She was in a good mood and seemed to be moving well.
When I got home a great friend of mine brought us some dinner and then we ran out to Walmart for some groceries. It wasn't until 8p tonight that K asked for meds again. That's 12 hours in between doses!!! That is great!!! K had been taking meds every 4-6 hours.
I am hoping this means the surgery was a success and that once she heals from the surgery itself, she will be pain free and back to normal!!
Update on Baby Charlotte
Yesterday while K was in surgery I was able to go visit my friend and her sweet baby girl Charlotte. On Tuesday morning it was confirmed that the baby had hirschsprung's disease and required surgery. Late Tuesday Charlotte went into surgery to try and fix her colon.
Unfortunately when they got in there, they found more damage then they thought and now the baby has a colostomy. Hopefully in a few months, once Charlotte is stronger and grows bigger, they can re-operate and reverse the colostomy.
Please continue to keep this family in your thoughts as Heather is under so much stress and pain right now. I hope that baby Charlotte continues to heal and will be sent home by the end of the month.
Unfortunately when they got in there, they found more damage then they thought and now the baby has a colostomy. Hopefully in a few months, once Charlotte is stronger and grows bigger, they can re-operate and reverse the colostomy.
Please continue to keep this family in your thoughts as Heather is under so much stress and pain right now. I hope that baby Charlotte continues to heal and will be sent home by the end of the month.
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