The twins had their 6 year check up today. They are both healthy and doing well. No identified problems and hopefully no reasons to go back for another year.
S:
50 pounds (73rd %) and 48.5" (93rd%)
K:
40 pounds (21st%) and 45.5" (55th%)
Both still skinny - thank goodness!
Showing posts with label TTC random thoughts. Show all posts
Showing posts with label TTC random thoughts. Show all posts
Monday, March 5, 2012
Friday, March 11, 2011
I Think I am Leaning Back Towards TTC
Last Monday there was an adoption workshop that I needed to attend to start the process. Due to several reasons I didn't go. But surprisingly, even to me, one of the reasons was that I was really being pulled towards TTC again, and away from adoption.
Adoption is such a shot in the dark. I can go through all the classes. I can bring infant after infant into my home with none staying; some undoubtedly being difficult placements. These children could be drug exposed, poor prenatal care, the children of mentally ill parents, etc. These factors were starting to weigh on me, while at the same time I would look at the three children who are beautiful, healthy and perfect. (I know...slight bias)
So what I need to deal with. .
****Aside****
I finally got my repair total. It sucks, but not near as high as I was fearing. I had told myself that if the bill was over $1000 I would have to cancel our trip to Texas and there would be no other 'fun'. The bill came under that amount so we are still on for our Summer trip. Just keep your fingers crossed not nothing else gets in the way.
Adoption is such a shot in the dark. I can go through all the classes. I can bring infant after infant into my home with none staying; some undoubtedly being difficult placements. These children could be drug exposed, poor prenatal care, the children of mentally ill parents, etc. These factors were starting to weigh on me, while at the same time I would look at the three children who are beautiful, healthy and perfect. (I know...slight bias)
So what I need to deal with. .
- I need to acquire vials. I know someone with MANY. The only catch, she has yet to start TTC. So I would have to wait until she starts the process, gets pregnant and then feel comfortable enough to sell me some.
- I need to lose weight. I have not lost any of the weight from M's pregnancy and we all know that I started off very big before that.
- I need to continue to work on my finances. Life doesn't seem to be going along with that plan as it keeps throwing curves at me, but I am determined.
- And finally there are two things I need to come to terms with. First, I need to accept that I will once again be pregnant. I am thinking about going through the most miserable 40 weeks of my life...again. I will have 3 kids to care for. Can I physically and mentally do this again. And second, I need to accept that I could have another son. I have mentioned before that I REALLY want another daughter. There is a 50% chance that that won't happen. Is that okay? If I have another boy will I continue to want more or will I be happy with stopping at 4 children? (and BTW....4 is my absolute maximum!!)
****Aside****
I finally got my repair total. It sucks, but not near as high as I was fearing. I had told myself that if the bill was over $1000 I would have to cancel our trip to Texas and there would be no other 'fun'. The bill came under that amount so we are still on for our Summer trip. Just keep your fingers crossed not nothing else gets in the way.
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Random Symptoms
So these are the things that are messing with my head. I am only 6 days post ovulation so I don't even think it's medically possible for any of this to be something significant...but here it goes.
1.) I was nauseous Saturday. K threw up after a coughing fit and I gagged while cleaning it up. I usually have no problem with vomit. I am around it all the time.
2.) My breasts are tender and my nipples have been burning.
3.) My uterus is a little crampy
4.) I cried today while someone was talking about Steve Irwin. I mean, it's a sad story...but me...crying? It's a little weird.
1.) I was nauseous Saturday. K threw up after a coughing fit and I gagged while cleaning it up. I usually have no problem with vomit. I am around it all the time.
2.) My breasts are tender and my nipples have been burning.
3.) My uterus is a little crampy
4.) I cried today while someone was talking about Steve Irwin. I mean, it's a sad story...but me...crying? It's a little weird.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Still Not Time...
Still no peak. In fact, when I test using regular OPK's I don't even have a faint line. I'm starting to tell myself I already O'd but that is virtually impossible. Today is CD14. I usually O on day 15 or 16. I have just been totally thrown off my the peak on the meter so early.
Talked to my mom tonight and she pissed me off...whats new right? I mentioned in passing that I still had a desire to adopt and she just started harping on me about how I already had 2 kids and I needed to stop, blah, blah, blah. She knows I will be trying again, but has no idea that I'm trying now. I think she is in denial though and hopes I won't go through with it. She seems to think that she will have to do something if another baby comes. It will be nice to have her support and help, but not necessary.
She also started getting on me about being single again. My mom is someone who has to be with someone. She cannot fathom why on earth I'm not searching the city looking for a husband. An old boyfriend from Canada posted "Happy Birthday" on my facebook page and my mom jumped on me saying that I needed to email him and see if he was single yada, yada, yada. She seems desperate for me to find someone. I wish she could understand that I am happy and I don't want anyone. Sadly...I don't think she ever will.
Talked to my mom tonight and she pissed me off...whats new right? I mentioned in passing that I still had a desire to adopt and she just started harping on me about how I already had 2 kids and I needed to stop, blah, blah, blah. She knows I will be trying again, but has no idea that I'm trying now. I think she is in denial though and hopes I won't go through with it. She seems to think that she will have to do something if another baby comes. It will be nice to have her support and help, but not necessary.
She also started getting on me about being single again. My mom is someone who has to be with someone. She cannot fathom why on earth I'm not searching the city looking for a husband. An old boyfriend from Canada posted "Happy Birthday" on my facebook page and my mom jumped on me saying that I needed to email him and see if he was single yada, yada, yada. She seems desperate for me to find someone. I wish she could understand that I am happy and I don't want anyone. Sadly...I don't think she ever will.
What Better Way to Pass the Time..
Than shopping on Ebay for maternity clothes LOL
I remember I did this once I started TTC before. I had a mini wardrobe before I even got pregnant. It was easier then. Lane Bryant had a really nice plus size maternity line. Well, not anymore, in fact, it looks like they are currently liquidating it. It's all on clearance for great prices...but all they have left is the 14 size...and don't even get me started on how a size 14 is NOT plus sized.
So...much harder to find stuff I like this time. When I was pregnant with the twins, Lane Bryant came out with these maternity overalls that I wanted SOOOOOO badly. But by the time they were available I only had a month or two left and couldn't justify spending the money. Now...I have to have my maternity overalls....but of course...I can't find any.
So my mission to all my blog readers is to find me plus sized maternity overalls.
I remember I did this once I started TTC before. I had a mini wardrobe before I even got pregnant. It was easier then. Lane Bryant had a really nice plus size maternity line. Well, not anymore, in fact, it looks like they are currently liquidating it. It's all on clearance for great prices...but all they have left is the 14 size...and don't even get me started on how a size 14 is NOT plus sized.
So...much harder to find stuff I like this time. When I was pregnant with the twins, Lane Bryant came out with these maternity overalls that I wanted SOOOOOO badly. But by the time they were available I only had a month or two left and couldn't justify spending the money. Now...I have to have my maternity overalls....but of course...I can't find any.
So my mission to all my blog readers is to find me plus sized maternity overalls.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Entlockly
1. YOUR REAL NAME:
Jamie2
2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle.)
Jamizzle
3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color and favorite animal)
Blue Dinosaur
4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (your middle name and street you live on/or neighborhood if it's a number)
Elizabeth Woodlyn
5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
Traja
6. YOUR SUPERHERO/CRIMINAL NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Gray Pepsi
7. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 1st letter of your last name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of your dads name, 1st letter of a siblings first name, and last letter of your moms first name).
Aatrvje
8. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (parents middle names).
Lynn Samuel
9 . YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets).
Black Maddy
10 . YOUR HOOD NAME:....first 3 of your first name and add -iqua....
Jamiqua11.
What will you repost this as? (1st letter of middle name; last letter of siblings first name, first letter of your last name, and add lockly)
Entlockly
Jamie2
2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME: (first 3 letters of real name plus izzle.)
Jamizzle
3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME: (favorite color and favorite animal)
Blue Dinosaur
4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME: (your middle name and street you live on/or neighborhood if it's a number)
Elizabeth Woodlyn
5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 letters of your first name)
Traja
6. YOUR SUPERHERO/CRIMINAL NAME: (Your 2nd favorite color, and favorite drink)
Gray Pepsi
7. YOUR IRAQI NAME: (2nd letter of your first name, 3rd letter of your last name, 1st letter of your last name, 2nd letter of your moms maiden name, 3rd letter of your dads name, 1st letter of a siblings first name, and last letter of your moms first name).
Aatrvje
8. YOUR WITNESS PROTECTION NAME: (parents middle names).
Lynn Samuel
9 . YOUR GOTH NAME: (black, and the name of one of your pets).
Black Maddy
10 . YOUR HOOD NAME:....first 3 of your first name and add -iqua....
Jamiqua11.
What will you repost this as? (1st letter of middle name; last letter of siblings first name, first letter of your last name, and add lockly)
Entlockly
Sunday, January 25, 2009
AAHHHHH!!
What is wrong with me? I have been pretty good about doing my exercise. When I'm at the Y I am able to workout for 40 minutes and my new favorite machine is the elliptical :) But the food...crap the food...I'm just not being good. I am hoping and wishing that tomorrow the scale doesn't show any gain. I'll be lucky if I maintain. Why on earth is it so freaking hard!? It didn't help that we had two events including a birthday party, but those are really just excuses. I really need to get my act together.
On other news, I didn't ovulate this month :( That sucks because it confirms my thoughts that I don't ovulate every month, which may be a sign of other problems. But it's also concerning because the month before I conceived the twins I didn't ovulate and always assumed I ovulated twice in June to make up for it. I hope I don't do that again next month.
I am getting excited about next month, and nervous too. I wish I had been able to lose more weight before then, but if this pregnancy is anything like the last one, I will lose plenty.
On other news, I didn't ovulate this month :( That sucks because it confirms my thoughts that I don't ovulate every month, which may be a sign of other problems. But it's also concerning because the month before I conceived the twins I didn't ovulate and always assumed I ovulated twice in June to make up for it. I hope I don't do that again next month.
I am getting excited about next month, and nervous too. I wish I had been able to lose more weight before then, but if this pregnancy is anything like the last one, I will lose plenty.
Thursday, January 8, 2009
UGH...
AF started today. I hate this time of the month. I feel so yucky. I have done really well on my diet this week up until today. I caved and made myself a peanut butter sandwich. Not too bad I guess, but I would feel better if I hadn't eaten it.
On a positive note, this is the last AF I will have until TTC. I am actually getting very excited. I have everything I need. I will call the bank on Monday and make sure all my paperwork is up to date for them to ship my goodies next month. And maybe this is a good sign, I should O on or around my birthday :)
Maybe I'll get a really good birthday gift this year
On a positive note, this is the last AF I will have until TTC. I am actually getting very excited. I have everything I need. I will call the bank on Monday and make sure all my paperwork is up to date for them to ship my goodies next month. And maybe this is a good sign, I should O on or around my birthday :)
Maybe I'll get a really good birthday gift this year
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Back to Reality...and TTC
So today, New Years Day, marks the start of several changes. I need to lose weight - ya I know...you've heard that before. I need to stop using my credit card. From now on, if I don't have the money in the bank, I don't need it. And finally I should be starting to TTC next month.
I am thinking February will be my first month. I should O around Feb 20th which will make me due (ya I know...if I get pregnant on the first try...highly unlikely) around November 13th. I am not thrilled about a late in the year baby, but the advantage to this would be my maternity leave would include all the holidays...so I wouldn't have to work them :)
Oh and just to give you an example about how weird I am, everyone in my family (parents, brothers, sisters, twins) are all born on an even year. Do you know I am weirded out by breaking the trend if I get pregnant right away and have an 2009 baby? See...I am a little crazy.
Today I went to three different pharmacies in the area for my monitor sticks. Well I guess everyone in town is TTC and using this monitor because they are all sold out! I have a few more places to check tomorrow but so far I am shocked that no one has them in stock. And they are now$50!! Holy moly! TTC gets more and more expensive each year. At least this go around I don't have to pay for sperm :)
I am thinking February will be my first month. I should O around Feb 20th which will make me due (ya I know...if I get pregnant on the first try...highly unlikely) around November 13th. I am not thrilled about a late in the year baby, but the advantage to this would be my maternity leave would include all the holidays...so I wouldn't have to work them :)
Oh and just to give you an example about how weird I am, everyone in my family (parents, brothers, sisters, twins) are all born on an even year. Do you know I am weirded out by breaking the trend if I get pregnant right away and have an 2009 baby? See...I am a little crazy.
Today I went to three different pharmacies in the area for my monitor sticks. Well I guess everyone in town is TTC and using this monitor because they are all sold out! I have a few more places to check tomorrow but so far I am shocked that no one has them in stock. And they are now$50!! Holy moly! TTC gets more and more expensive each year. At least this go around I don't have to pay for sperm :)
Thursday, November 6, 2008
Not Much Going On....
Besides the usual chaos. We went to the Children's Museum today, swimming and out to dinner. It felt like I never stopped from sun up to sun down, but I got a lot done! I was even able to return that crappy embroidery machine. I am so bummed that it didn't work. I will continue to think about what I want to do, and maybe next year with my tax return I will get a better one.
Another friend found the blog (Hi J!!) It's so funny that this was supposed to be this anonymous, no one will know blog and yet three people have found it. It just goes to show you that even in the vastness of the Internet, you can easily be found.
I am still working out daily. I actually feel really good about it. Hopefully I can do better with my eating, although I have cut out all binging episodes since starting, and I will see a scale change at my next doctors visit.
As far as TTC, I still plan on it. Weight is hopefully coming off. I am still charting but this month has been very screwy. I know last month I ovulated, but this month I am not so sure. My temps are everywhere and I never peaked on the monitor. I am starting to really think that I don't regularly ovulate. I kinda knew this from when I was TTC the twins. In May I didn't ovulate and then in June I did - ending in the pregnancy. I guess things haven't changed, but it worries me because I always assumed I ovulated twice in June because I didn't ovulate in May. If that is still the case, it worries me a little.
And lastly, I am starting to get all excited about the Holidays. I swear it was just another time of year before but now that I have the twins I get all giddy and excited. To see it through their eyes is so cool!
Another friend found the blog (Hi J!!) It's so funny that this was supposed to be this anonymous, no one will know blog and yet three people have found it. It just goes to show you that even in the vastness of the Internet, you can easily be found.
I am still working out daily. I actually feel really good about it. Hopefully I can do better with my eating, although I have cut out all binging episodes since starting, and I will see a scale change at my next doctors visit.
As far as TTC, I still plan on it. Weight is hopefully coming off. I am still charting but this month has been very screwy. I know last month I ovulated, but this month I am not so sure. My temps are everywhere and I never peaked on the monitor. I am starting to really think that I don't regularly ovulate. I kinda knew this from when I was TTC the twins. In May I didn't ovulate and then in June I did - ending in the pregnancy. I guess things haven't changed, but it worries me because I always assumed I ovulated twice in June because I didn't ovulate in May. If that is still the case, it worries me a little.
And lastly, I am starting to get all excited about the Holidays. I swear it was just another time of year before but now that I have the twins I get all giddy and excited. To see it through their eyes is so cool!
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Thoughts for today...
Why do I get so insanely jealous when I hear of others TTC? I was supposed to start TTC myself in May and now any time I hear of people who are TTC or even pregnant I get jealous. I just found out tonight that a friend is doing IVF for the second time. She failed her first attempt and she deserves this more then anything, but all I can think is I want it to be me. Not feelings to be proud of.
Today was difficult because I was sucked into some majorly immature drama on a mommies board that I am very active on. A certain member has decided that I am on her shit list and she seems to be going out of her way to cause problems. I don't get it as I have had no negative interactions with her. She has a history of these huge dramatic fights with people and I guess I am her latest victim. I refuse though to be pulled down with her, so I guess she picked the wrong person. Why is it that whenever you get a large group of women together we have to get catty and back-stabbing?
Today was difficult because I was sucked into some majorly immature drama on a mommies board that I am very active on. A certain member has decided that I am on her shit list and she seems to be going out of her way to cause problems. I don't get it as I have had no negative interactions with her. She has a history of these huge dramatic fights with people and I guess I am her latest victim. I refuse though to be pulled down with her, so I guess she picked the wrong person. Why is it that whenever you get a large group of women together we have to get catty and back-stabbing?
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