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Just a little update....all the gumdrops on the house are gone. I found the twins in the kitchen and a empty roof. Both had the biggest smile too.

Poor Confused Kids

This morning I was able to motivate myself, despite it being cold and rainy, to get the kids dressed and out the door to go see Santa. We talked about it all morning, trying to coach the kids on what to tell Santa they wanted. K was going to ask for a purple purse and S a helicopter. They were semi-excited when they saw him, but I just kept reminding them what they were going to ask for. When it was their turn, both of them jumped into his arms, which kinda shocked me, and asked Santa for their presents. Then when it was time to go, they both broke down and started to sob. It took me a few seconds to realize they thought they were getting the presents right then. Poor kids.

I got a good picture of K, but S wouldn't cooperate with keeping his hands away from his face. Still a successful picture in my book:

Before we left I assembled our gingerbread house so that it would be ready to decorate. I told the twins that after nap we could make the house. We K got up from her nap early, snuck downstairs and got into the icing sugar. When I got downstairs I found a lightly powdered toddler with sugar everywhere. We proceeded to decorate the tree. I think half the decorations ended up in the twins rather then on the house, but I think overall they did a good job. Below K shows off her house. S is mad because he can't eat it. I am pretty sure one morning I will come downstairs to see them both nibbling away :)

And finally we decorated the tree. I think it looks better decorated and the big gap in the middle isn't near as noticeable.

The Christmas Tree is Up!

The tree went up today. S was thrilled! He has been so excited about Christmas trees the last few weeks and now he finally has one of his own. K was not as thrilled and even fell asleep during the construction. We put lights and beads on, but we will wait until tomorrow to do the decorations.

The past few days I have been looking for another tree and couldn't quite figure out why, seeing as I had one sitting in my garage. Once I put it up, I remembered. The stupid thing looks like its missing a chunk in the middle. I have had it for 4 or 5 years and every year I say I need to toss it, and then never do. This year I will follow through!

Tomorrow is Christmas pictures with Santa at the mall, finishing the tree and putting together a gingerbread house. I am so trying to get into the spirit. Some moments I'm there, and then others I couldn't be farther away. Having the twins helps. Otherwise I probably wouldn't even put up decorations.

I Have A Talented Son

S has decided in the last few weeks that bedtime is absolutely the worst possible thing that can happen to a person. As soon as he gets wind that its coming, the sobbing starts and bargaining begins. Well, last week when he was sick, he was able to stay up with mommy until I went to bed - 12ish - and sleep with mommy. Well I think a light bulb went off in his head.

Now when I say "BEDTIME" S is able to make himself vomit almost immediately. He is not sick all day. He eats fine. No problems at all. But apparently the word bedtime causes my son to have extreme nausea to the point of vomiting. This is so much fun for me as you can imagine.

I hope he develops some new talents and leaves this one behind.

Do You Have Days Where You Hurt Your Children?

I mean like physically hurt them without meaning to? I swear I must have accidentally hurt K like 5 times today!! The worst two times were when we were out shopping. She was in her stroller when I wedged her leg between it and the door frame - Ouch!! That took about 5 minutes of consoling to calm down, but she was walking normally afterwards. Then fast forward only like 20 minutes when I went to get her out of the cart. I snagged her hair and a big clump was ripped out! I couldn't believe how much hair she lost. I can't imagine how much that hurt.

I will be surprised if she lets me near her tomorrow.

Black Friday

People are crazy. I just can't get excited about waking up at 3am and standing outside in the cold waiting for some store to open to MAYBE get the chance to buy something at a insanely low price. I just don't get it. While many of you were out shopping I was still sleeping. In fact while many of you were hitting your 5th or 6th store I was still in my cozy PJ's watching Noggin with the twins.

We woke up about 8am and stayed in our PJ's until about 11. We then got dressed and I went to a large craft show while the twins played at a drop-in child care center that they love. I was able to have lunch with a friend and them go home for a Thanksgiving leftover dinner. We then decided to brave the crowds which were considerably smaller than I'm sure they had been early in the morning, and despite my slack, late start, I was able to buy the one thing I thought looked good - 2 small children's bikes for S and K. They will freak when they see them :)

My thoughts and feelings about Black Friday were confirmed when I read that some poor Walmart employee was killed today by a stampede of crazy shoppers. And I thought wrestling over a Tickle-Me-Elmo was bad :(

A Nice Thanksgiving

We had a nice day here. My parents came around 11am and cooked dinner. I had baked 2 pumpkin cheesecakes - both of which were yummy!! - but my mom did the majority of the cooking. All the food was great and everyone was pretty well behaved despite the twins being fairly whiny in the morning.

Of course we ate way too much. K and S both ate their weight in meat and come to think of it, other than liquids I think 99% of the solids they consumed were meat. I honestly think my kids would die if we ever became vegetarian.

This is a great kick off for the holiday season. I will do minimal shopping tomorrow, and put the Christmas tree us in the evening with the kids. S will be so excited because he LOVES trees right now. This weekend will be fairly low key because I cannot stand the crowds of Christmas and will avoid them whenever I can.

I hope all my blog readers also had a Happy Thanksgiving.

I Think S Wanted to Punish Me

Well after my grand day of twinless shopping S was being a grumpy butt. He was whining about everything and very uncooperative. Well by bedtime the reason became clear - he had a high fever and then started vomiting. So, all Saturday night I had a vomiting child in my bed. Again on Sunday I went to work with very little sleep (only 1 day after being up all night with K)

Thankfully he was better when he woke up and seemed to have recovered quickly. Now the clocks ticks away until K ends up sick...

A Mini Vacation for ME!

On Friday I was told that work didn't need me to work on Saturday. Well I was very happy, but had already confirmed with the babysitter and was now obligated to pay. I really would have liked not to pay her, but since I had to, I decided I would spend the day Christmas shopping ALL BY MYSELF!!!

It felt so weird running around town without twin toddlers following me everywhere. I kept expecting to have to get them in and out of car seats, but nope :) It was soooooo nice! I ran around to multiple stores buying most of the gifts I needed to. I went to a craft fair that was put on by my local mommy group. It was so funny. Everyone kept asking "where are the twins?" and several people said they didn't think they had ever seen me without them - that part is kinda sad.

It's funny because when I decided to do this, I thought what on earth am I going to do? Well, by the time I was supposed to be heading home I still hadn't gotten my grocery shopping done, or picked up my cribs at Babies R Us.

If I could afford it, I would do this much more often!!

Update on the "Situation"

Sorry. Things got very busy and I never came back.

Thursday night was horrible. K was up crying about every 30-40 min saying her bum or tummy hurt. This went on all night until I had to get up and go to work Friday morning. She was pitiful. She also refused to eat or drink. The babysitter was left with instructions to get as much Miralax in the child, but since she wasn't drinking, it was a hard task. That night K went through more Miralax and some enemas :( Finally just before bed K had a blow out. I was so relieved! It was almost at the point of bringing her to the ER. On Saturday she had three more HUGE poops. I think that kids lost 5lbs over 24 hours. Now we are under strict doctors orders to keep Miralax dosing twice a day for the next 3 months.

S never did have the blow out I was expecting...so that was nice.

Crap....

Literally and Figuratively....

While typing the blog entry, S got a hold of the juice. It's now gone.

Lord help us!

"Mommy, Poo Dhurts"

This is what I hear every few weeks from K. The poor thing has the hardest time staying regular. In fact, I think she was barely a few weeks old before her first glycerin suppository. As a baby I tried everything to keep her regular. Nothing really worked until we went to Miralax. For awhile the child got a dose a day to keep from backing up. Well a few months ago she seemed to be better and I stopped using the laxative. Well the last few days she has seemed more uncomfortable, and bad mommy, but I didn't restart the Miralax on time. Now K is crying saying "poo dhurt" and terrified I will hurt her more. I asked her if I could give her 'poo medicine' (suppository or enema) and she just sobbed "No poo medicine!" So the poor thing is downing juice laced with Miralax in hopes that something will help.

I hate to see her hurt!!

In a weird way, S is the COMPLETE opposite. If that child doesn't have several poos a day, something is wrong. Just this week I counted five in one day! Now that was a little excessive, but the kid usually poops three times a day, everyday. So you can imagine the stress of giving K juice with Miralax and watching the cup like a hawk to make sure S doesn't get a hold of it :)

To My Blog Readers

I have noticed some hits from cities in which I don't know anyone :) This is kinda exciting to know that people have stumbled on to this little ole blog of mine :) I invite you guys to comment as you wish. I love that I have some 'readers'

A Cute S Story

Since I shared a cute K story yesterday I will share some cute tidbits about S.

S is such a charmer. He is so cuddly and such a mommy's boy. I love it. He has a smile that could melt your heart and to top it all off, really seems to have a great sense of humor. He can be stubborn and independent, but hey, what 2yo isn't.

S loves his Noggin. Every night while we wind down, we watch Noggin. S has figured out the line up. Dora, Diego, Backyardigans, Wonder Pets and then Wubbzy. Of course the twins are supposed to be in bed after Diego, but if I get busy doing stuff they can often extend it to later. Well I guess this has happened too much lately because S knows exactly what comes on next and can have a major melt down when I announce it's bedtime. While the twins watch their TV I am usually on the computer catching up on my day, working on some projects or doing one of a million things I have been assigned. S is also very used to this routine.

So often our bedtime routine goes something like this

Me "OK it's bedtime"
S "NO!! I wanna watch _____"
Me "It's already past your bedtime, it's time for bed"
S "No I wanna watch ______. Go sit puter" while saying this he is usually physically pushing me back to the computer and into the chair.

This description doesn't quite do it justice, but its awful cute. S's favorite show right now is Wubbzy and every so often he says "That's Kooky" just like on Wubbzy while flicking his fingers.

Gosh he is just too adorable :)

This Conversation Occurs About Every 45 Minutes

K "Mommy"
Me "Yes K-K"
K "Eight, Nine, Ten"

That's it. K then walks away and continues what she was doing. I just have to laugh and tell her she's crazy. She has the cutest little smile when she says it too. Like she is so proud that she has gotten the concept that she has to remind me every few minutes. She knows from one to ten, but apparently 8-9-10 are her favorite.

And since I'm on the topic of funny K things I figure I'll throw this one in. Last Monday and friend watched the twins while I went to a meeting. She has a son, M, who is about the same age. Well apparently at some point M got mad at K and threw a toy at her cheek leaving a small bruise. Well about two to three times a day K tells me her cheek hurts (which is total bull) and then goes on to say "M hurt me. Boo-boo cheek. M threw toy cheek" I don't think she will ever get over it. She may be telling this story well into college. In fact, I think she relayed this story to me within the past hour :)

Gosh she is cute sometimes

My Back is a Little Better

I am able to walk and move pretty well today. I still have a constant ache and some movement hurts but overall I am so much better then I was. I am working this week in the office so I think by the end of the week I should be pretty good. It will probably be a week or so until I'm 100% but at least right now it tolerable.

Keep Her in Your Thoughts

I just learned that an acquaintance of mine who was 37 weeks pregnant lost her baby boy last night. I can't even begin to imagine. My heart aches for her. Please keep L in your thoughts while she figures out how to cope through her loss.

Add Naproxen, Ibuprofen and Percocet....

To the list of drugs that don't take away this back pain. I have no idea what I'll do if this doesn't start getting better soon. There is only so much a girl can take!

Flexeril - Nope...Vicoden - Nope...

I went to the doctor today about my back. He believes I strained my erector muscle. He put me on Flexeril and Vicoden. I have taken both with no relief what so ever. So many people have told me how great Flexeril is!! It apparently does nothing for me. I am still barely mobile and have sat in my Lazy Boy recliner almost all afternoon. I think the thing that is doing the most benefit is the heat pack I have kept to my back all afternoon.

Tonight after the twins went to bed, I hobbled over to the Harris Teeter and purchased some naproxen and ibuprofen. I have more faith in these two drugs then I do the 'hard core' drugs the doc prescribed.

Tomorrow I plan on piling into the van and driving to my moms. There I can lay in bed all day and let her deal with the crazy two year olds.

I Have Never Been in so Much Pain

This morning when I bent over to pick something up, I threw out my back. I am in so much pain. I can barely move. I will be out of work tomorrow and will get into see a doctor to see what they can do to help. I sure hope they can do something because I can't take this too much longer.

Is There Anything More Stressful...

Than trying to get two 2-year olds to cooperate for Christmas Pictures. Holy Hell. What a freaking adventure. After today I wanted to drop the twins off somewhere and walk away.

For all my effort I got some okay pictures. I spent a lot of time trying to find some cute Christmas outfits and I didn't even get any cute pictures in them. In their other outfit - one which I got as hand me downs - I got a couple cute ones. The twins were miserable and despite bringing M&M's for bribery and promising a trip to the pets store, they didn't really smile. Then just to tick me off I guess, when I said "All Done" K started saying "Cheese" and really hamming it up - UGH. At least the photographer got one of her doing that.


I am convinced that 2 year olds are the reason Valium, Xanax and Ativan were made.

Here are some pics:

A Great Night

Tonight for my MOM group we just got together and played games. It was so nice to hang out with other adults and have fun! We played a few games of Scategories. Who knew it could be so much fun :)

Tomorrow we have Christmas photos. Hopefully I'll get some good ones and I can post. Of course K ended up with a bruise on her cheek tonight. Hopefully it will look okay in the morning. Just in case, I have some cover up :)

I had fun :)

The convention itself was pretty lame. Not nearly as good as last year and there was some weird dynamic going on that I can't quite explain. But I was able to hang out with friends, laugh, dance a little and forget about my troubles. It was quite the expensive get-away with dinner and babysitting costing me $115 - YIKES! Overall I am glad I went and I had a good time.

I was very, very tired this morning so I spent most of it in my PJ's. After nap we all got dressed and headed to a Christmas Craft Fair that comes here every year. It is so neat to see all the cool holiday gift ideas. I love looking and although I can't afford a thing, it was a nice afternoon event. The twins even got to see Santa. I forgot my camera (bad mommy) but I had my camera phone.

Hopefully Tonight....

Will be a good time to take my mind off things.

Every year there is a Mom of Multiples convention in the state. It's this weekend. I really wanted to go the whole weekend, but my mom couldn't watch the kids, so I had to settle for just dinner tonight.

Yesterday I was depressed because my group was already there hanging out and having fun. Today I feel better and look forward to tonight. I wish I could be there with them now, but I have to focus on dinner.

I hope it goes well and I have some much needed fun!

Warning....the Following Post will Make me Sound Paranoid

This past week I have had two people that have turned on me out of the blue. To my knowledge I have done nothing. And in some cases another person has decided to make up lies about me. Since I have no one to sent to about these situations, I will spew them here.

Case #1
Today I went down to visit a friend at work. She seemed distant and then she said she was upset with me. See recently she had a big pay cut, she is dealing with an international adoption and is still recovering from two failed IVF's. She said her feelings were hurt by me because "Someone" told her that I was laughing and making fun of her pay cut. WHAT!? Why on friggin earth would I laugh at someone who is losing money, especially someone I considered my friend. Almost as hurtful was that she believed it. As a friend, I would have thought she would know me enough to know I wouldn't do that to her. I know I can be very opinionated at times, and I always stand by what I say, but never would I take pleasure in someone else's suffering.

It also drives me nuts that she won't tell me who said it. I think I have a right to know who is making up lies about me. I figure it has to be someone within our circle for her to believe it. It feels like there is someone at work who is trying to plot against me (hence the paranoia). A few months ago I make cupcakes for the department only to find out someone had told people not to eat them because I let my kids play in the batter!?

I really want to meet this 'someone'.

Case #2
There is a girl on my triadmommy site, C. She is known to be biploar and a little edgy. Before I became friends with her, she had two major run ins with moms she met off the site resulting in a huge war, some criminal charges and those moms leaving the site. I figured she had some bad luck with friends, however it's becoming more obvious that she played a much bigger role.

Well a few months ago she turned on me big time. She started making up this shit about me and complaining about me to leadership. It caught me completely off guard as I hadn't done anything to her. Well about 3 days after she did that, her husband ended up in the hospital and suddenly she needed me as a friend again. I decided then that I would keep my distance.

Skip to this week. Nothing has really happened, and suddenly she has turned on me again. She told another friend of ours all these lies. She sent all these emails to leadership that I had written her in the beginning of our friendship that complained about leadership (I guess she kept them for a rainy day??) She has gone behind my back and tried to get my moderator privileges revoked for the two forums I run. It's like she feeds off the drama and has tried to suck me into it.

I truly think she is trying to get me to go into war with her like the last two did. I'm not taking the bait. I am just sitting back and watching her fall apart, but knowing while she's doing it, she is taking my reputation down with it.

So as you can see, my friendships have sucked. People who I thought were my friends turning on me, and 'someone' going out of there way to make me look hateful. Gosh...I just feel all warm and fuzzy...

Feeling Lonely

I have heard people who have many friends say they feel alone. I know what they mean. I have a bunch of friends, but no 'best friend'. No friend who I can call in the middle of the night. No one who comes over to hang out. No one, who if I needed something I could always count on. It's depressing me. I had a really bad day today and all I could do was cry. I had no one to call, no one to go to. It just made me feel so alone.

Not Much Going On....

Besides the usual chaos. We went to the Children's Museum today, swimming and out to dinner. It felt like I never stopped from sun up to sun down, but I got a lot done! I was even able to return that crappy embroidery machine. I am so bummed that it didn't work. I will continue to think about what I want to do, and maybe next year with my tax return I will get a better one.

Another friend found the blog (Hi J!!) It's so funny that this was supposed to be this anonymous, no one will know blog and yet three people have found it. It just goes to show you that even in the vastness of the Internet, you can easily be found.

I am still working out daily. I actually feel really good about it. Hopefully I can do better with my eating, although I have cut out all binging episodes since starting, and I will see a scale change at my next doctors visit.

As far as TTC, I still plan on it. Weight is hopefully coming off. I am still charting but this month has been very screwy. I know last month I ovulated, but this month I am not so sure. My temps are everywhere and I never peaked on the monitor. I am starting to really think that I don't regularly ovulate. I kinda knew this from when I was TTC the twins. In May I didn't ovulate and then in June I did - ending in the pregnancy. I guess things haven't changed, but it worries me because I always assumed I ovulated twice in June because I didn't ovulate in May. If that is still the case, it worries me a little.

And lastly, I am starting to get all excited about the Holidays. I swear it was just another time of year before but now that I have the twins I get all giddy and excited. To see it through their eyes is so cool!

This Says it All

Who knew a Canadian would be so into the Election??

I am sitting her with my stomach in knots hoping that Obama wins this one. While I don't mind McCain too much, Sarah Palin scares the shit out of me! She does not need to be anywhere near the White House!!

So I will be up tonight waiting for the results with the rest of America hoping that the right decision is made. Here's to a new start and a fresh attempt to try an dig us out of this horribly deep hole America is in right now.

Here it is.....Finally

Diet Update

So far...not too bad. I have had a few rough patches with Halloween and N's birthday, but I have been real good with my exercise. I have been to the Y most days this past week. I am feeling better about myself so hopefully the exercise and meds are starting to work :)

I was weighed at the doctors office on October 27th. I have another appointment on November 24th. I will not weigh myself again until then. I don't need the discouragement right now.

Tomorrow I will be back at the Y, and I hope to increase my workout and my time there. Luckily I have a workout buddy with the same goals and same weight loss needs. It is SOOO much easier that way :)

A Busy Weekend

Wow, the weekend has flown by. I meant to post on Friday, but after putting the kids down for bed, I laid down just for a minute only to wake up 10 hours later. I don't think I've gotten that much sleep in months!

Then Saturday was spent cleaning, working out at the Y, grocery shopping and general life stuff. Today was N's birthday so we celebrated here and then went out to dinner. My parents came over and spent the day. It all went very nicely and although it went by fast, we had a good weekend.

Now onto the next week :)