I am Totally Failing at Life Right Now

Despite feeling a few weeks ago like I may be seeing the end of being sick, I am more hopeless now than ever. I have 4 or 5 hours during the day in which I don't feel sick as a dog, and those hours are thanks to the Zofran I take every morning. My last good day was over a week ago. I am getting so 'sick' of being sick. I know I should be great full, and don't get me wrong, I am, but I feel like there is only so much more of feeling like this I can take.

My house is such a mess. It's not dirty, but OMG it's been forever since I have cleaned up the toys in the twins room; since washing the hardwood floors; since dusting; since doing any major cleaning of anything what-so-ever!

I am feeling guilty about my mothering ability. The twins are made to entertain themselves as I spend most of the day sitting or lying on the couch fighting back throwing up. I try not to, but I know I am more inpatient and short tempered with them. If I don't have to, we don't go anywhere. I can't stand cooking dinner (one of my sickest times) so mostly I have cooked frozen and premade dinners.

I know this is a total pity party and most moms who are pregnant experience this in some form. I know there is an end to this misery, even if it is in December.